Its been quite some time since I have time to write again. It was kind of nice to hear that I am picking things up rather speedily at work. I thought I was being really slow and got impatient with myself. All along, I am my own enemy more than anyone else, Anna was right, I expect too much from people and from myself. I really should slack off, life is way too short afterall, am I really feeling it now...

Too bad Prairie is leaving, she is such a gentle soul, such a sweet girl, on Friday morning I was thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such a kind boss. Low and behold, she is leaving, sometime in November, hopefully they are able to find someone as nice as her.

Karen is really sweet too, though she hasn't done anything, when I am around her, I can actually sense her kindness projecting from within, somehow she gives me a feeling like she is my daughter.

Each morning when I wake up, I thank God in placing me where I am, work itself is no big deal, just some low self-esteem girls trying hard to show me that they can fool me around, pathetic bunch.

I honestly don't know how my life will unfold, just the thought of renovating gives me a heart attack. Like Sally said, God direct me to this firm must has His reasons. Couldn't believe how many Cancers and Piceses are in this firm. No wonder I feel this stuffiness everywhere.

I also feel a lot of Welby, so I finally wrote him today with a short note, see if he will respond.

That's it for now.

Have been trying to put in my second article but fail to figure out how the blog works. My dizzy spell is not helping either.

Well, I have spent 3 weeks at this company now, it is typical of a MNC outfit, politics and everyone is trying to be boss to everyone else. Things changed at a moment's notice and no pre-warning necessary.

On Tuesday Lauis Yip called asking if I am interested to work for a lady MD for a chemical company, the package is not bad, I am tired of changing around and having to adjust myself to new environments. This current employer of mine is not bad, just the kind I am used to. I tried to lay low at all costs, have enough of jealousy from each one of my past jobs.

This job is really tedious and no brainer, all one needs is to get familiarize with the software technique, the bunch of I.T. guys are typical again, try to wriggle out their responsibilities, there are always people trying to get away from their responsibilities and get the optimum benefits without busting their behind, like Christine, a huge complainer each time someone asks her to do any little thing. Late arrival to work every day and the 1st one to dash out the office. After bumping into so many Pisces, my overall conclusion is that they are a pain to deal with, they have too many of their qualms and a God damn complainer, each and everyone of them.

I do look forward for this move, thank God that Christine will not be sitting next to me, I welcome Winnie being my neighbor, Ms. E is still an unknown, don't think she is a bad girl, but got influenced by Angela too much, this girl has way too much envy for everybody else, a real gossiper. Hope by end of the year, I don't need to support KL, what a mess this girl is, all the piles of paper and junk all over her desk. Frankly I don't know how people can operate with so much junk on their desk.

I can feel Welby is missing me, I am not going to contact him until he apologizes for his unacceptable behavior, what a relief it is not having to please him. Asmuch as I don't want to believe it, by staying out of each other ways does seem better.

I finally get to see Dr. LSS, he confirmed that everything seem ok, and that my fibroid only enlarged for 0.15cm over 4 years, that's not bad, I suppose. He prescribed 3 days of meds for me see if my blood circulates better, need to go back to check out my papsmear report next week. After drinking the red dates syrup seems to help some.

Becky called this morning asking if I will go to church, instead I ask her to go to SZ with me, as usual, she needs to go back to the office to do some work and end up being late and cancel the trip.

With my dizzy spells, think I better stay home, save some money and energy.

Cindy

Friday 21 July 2006

Wow, I have been with this new employer of mine for two weeks now. Time flies irrespective you have fun or not. So far, the experience wasn't too bad, people are really nice to help me settling in to the work environment and work protocols. This is by far one of the most helpful companies I have ever encountered.

Each and every day, I thank God for dropping his blessings to me with this job offer, until this minute I still am puzzled how my cv end up where it was. Everyone of my friend tells me that I look good, very much at ease and settled. Again I thank God that all my life I haven't been sitting on a bed of roses. I have had my share of peaks and valleys, a tad too much if I may add. Could belive at an age of 50, my life seemingly is starting to settle down, not sure if I may call it settled.

I wrote a rather long mail to Cecilia, my ex-colleague and subordinate, we are both Libras, from the sound of it, she has been wandering from one city to the next and one country to the other, suppose one has to fulfill what their dreams are before they will find out, hey, it really is no big deal. No matter which nation we are in, what nationality we are dealing with, basic human shortcomings are universal. Typically, selfishness and jealousy, the only difference is that those who are educated abroad from China and Hong Kong are less calculating and more likeable.

All these youths who are my bosses was a welcome change to me, I like them so much more than working for some senior guys who cannot wait to exercise their authorities which is totally boring to me.

Can't believe I cannot escape this fate of mine having to involve in office move again. Each and every year, if its not my home move, its my office move, hopefully I will be assigned with a comfortable workstation on 8th floor and facing the right direction. Hopefully I don't need to sit next to this blunt and coarse character. She is not a bad girl, just a bit too loud and brisk sometimes. I like W the whiner, she complains a lot, but a rather nice and simple character. Lady A, vey mature and astute, a natural leader. Lady E, quite refine, not a very good leader, nice girl though. Lady E, very pretty and wholesome, hardly come over our side. Lady I, an eye soar, not a pleasant site to view.

Well, I have a full day tomorrow, got to get up and get my exercise which is weeks overdue, get my facial and go see Dr. Wong, the dentist, not sure what's wrong with me, I am experiencing disorientation, wonder if its my fibroid that is growing which causes my dizziness.

Think I better stop here and enjoy my pay tv.

My two bits summary for the day is, not a bad day overall, had lunch with cl, someone can only be a casual friend, she only talks shop with no real substance, hey, why would she be? I am just an ex-client to her and used to give her so much shit, I must give her credit for keeping me as a friend, who wants to befriends with a person who is so hard to serve. Good old H Market Days, what a nightmare! Get back to my day, not too much work, think people prefer to ask me to do work over lady C, lady K strikes me as a very bright girl. lady P is very nice, have a feeling that she is a tiger, one of these days, I can confirm if my feeling is right.

Anyway, ciao!!